This was not the next blog post that I wanted to make. I wanted to recap the first few weeks we have enjoyed w/Riley, but I need to make this post to have some closure.
This morning, we had to put our precious Susie to sleep. She was starting to have trouble getting up and you could tell, she was just very tired from fighting the cancer. My strong husband took her to the vet while I stayed home with Riley. I really wanted to be by her side as she took her last breath, but Kennie promised me he wouldnt leave her side. Ive pretty much spent the day as an emotional wreck. I just cant stop crying and I know my hormones are making it worse. I just feel like we have lost such a huge part of our family. I spent the morning laying on her blanket with her and fed her last apple and treats. I made sure she had her blankie in the truck for her ride to the vet. I didnt want to say goodbye, but I knew that she wouldnt be in pain anymore and be in a better place. I am thankful that it was Saturday and we were able to take her to the vet this morning and not have to put if off until Monday and watch her suffer. When this all started the vet told me, I would know when it was time and that Susie would let me know, and this morning, you could see it in her eyes. She did everything I asked of her, I wanted her to meet the baby and she was strong and hung in there, she has been a real trooper through all of this, and now I'm trying to be strong for her sake.
I know everyone has to go through this in their lifetime, but I havent had to deal with losing a dog in my adult years. They truly become a part of your family, and its so hard to say goodbye. I know these next few days are going to be tough, but I know she isnt going to be in pain anymore and that we gave her a great life. Kennie is out digging her a spot under the trees by our bedroom window so she will be close to us. I think she will like her final resting spot. I am thankful that we were able to spend these last few months with her, and I will forever cherish all the memories she left us with. Susie just needed a little love when she came into our lives, and I dont she she will ever know, how much she was loved or will be missed.
We love you Snackie!
2 comments:
oh kel i am so sorry! I am in tears for you...just the thought of losing one of my babies kills me.
i am glad she will be staying close by and watching over you and the family. hang in there.
Kel,
Thanks for your kind words. I know that you and Shan can totally understand what its like to loose a pet, as your doggies are also part of the family! Its hard no matter what, but as the days go on things get better, and I just think back to all the good memories we have and the times she made us laugh!
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