As you all know yesterday was just a horrible day. Having to say goodbye to our Susie was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I knew that sooner or later it was going to happen, and I thought I would be prepared, but I dont think you are ever prepared to say goodbye to a beloved pet. Although it was a bad day Miss Riley was very good! She took her usual naps during the day with her awake periods and was eating very well. I was glad that at least that was going well.
Kennie, Long Dog and I went out to the spot Kennie choose to lay her to rest. We put her piggy stuffed animal in her casket, and Longie gave contributed her favorite moose stuffed animal as well. We covered her in her blanket from her bed, and said our final goodbyes. As much as I thought Longie wouldnt understand what was going on, she knew that it was her sissy that we were saying goodbye to. I'm glad that we got to share that moment as a family, with Susie looking from above.
So with a pounding headache the rest of the afternoon from crying I tried to plug away at laundry and housework while Mom was here. I did get a few things done, but not all that I hoped. Riley ate and went to sleep from 9-12, and it was great to get a few hours of sleep. When she woke up at 12, I figured it would be our normal routine of eating and back to sleep, but she had other plans for us. Every time she ate and I would try to get her to sleep, she would sleep for a few minutes and then wake back up, just screaming and crying. I'm thinking she has colic, and there was nothing we could do to console her. So finally at 5 am, Kennie and I loaded her into his truck and took a long drive around in the snowy night. Although I would have rather been home sleeping, it was nice driving around on the snow covered roads with no traffic and just watching the snow fall. Our mission worked and she was finally fast asleep. (I think before we pulled out of the driveway!) We left her in her car seat, in her snow suit and put her in the bed with us and we all finally went to sleep...it was one of the hardest nights yet, after a really bad day. I dont think I have cried this much in my life ever. But I know that these bad days and nights will hopefully get better and make me a stronger person.
It was nice to wake up to see Susies new resting spot covered in snow. Longie went out and visited her today without Kennie and I even walking over to the spot. I had to put away her dog beds and her absence from them was eating at me. The house seems so quiet with only 1 dog. Usually there is 200 pounds of dog that comes running into the kitchen for treats, only Longie seems so light on her feet. I know my sadness will always be there, I just hope day by day it gets better, and the hole in my heart heals.
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kelly i am so sorry. i can only imagine how hard a decision that must have been for you guys. i couldnt believe how much i was crying about it, so i can only imagine how your weekend must have been...but she did make it for riley and what a blessing that was! it will get better in time but im sure you will miss her forever!! im here for you always!
I am totally thinking of you and so sorry to hear about your furry little one. It was so hard to do the same with our furry baby last year (my cat Daphne was 13 and it just broke my heart)... I'm sure that she knew how important it was that she meet Riley first. I hope that you are all settling in well with that beautiful little one - keep taking pictures!!!! (as you will soon see, she'll grow so fast!). Please DO NOT hesitate to call ANYTIME (yell if you need my number) if you need anything, we've been through most of it. Hugs to all 4 of you.
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